Baby-fever

Yeah, it's in full swing! I want to be a mommy, and not in that "One day I'll have a baby" way but as in I want one within the next 2 1/2 years.

I know it seems crazy to have a timeline, but I want to have a child by the time I'm 30. I don't want to run into the high risks that happen when a women reaches later ages, and I want to be reasonably young with a child.

Anymore it's hard for me to go places where there might be children, I even avoided an event this weekend with my family and friends so that I didn't have to be bombarded by the little ones.

When I see babies and little kids I get this pain in my heart. A little cuddly person who's all mine would be fantastic! I know that I would be a great mother! I've come to understand that being a mom is a rewarding and stressful job that I want. My mother and my Nana are two of the most amazing women and mothers I know, and I'm sure I can be just as great as they are.

I get sad and a little jealous looking at people and couples that I grew up with or went to high school with that have their own little families knowing that I am probably going to have to do it on my own. I really am fine with doing it on my own terms, since that's the way I do most everything, but that means I have to look at alternative ways to conceive. Yes, that mean going to a sperm bank, but I am willing to do that! Hell, I know that there is one in Columbus!

It's hard to explain the feeling, I know I am more ready than ever to be someones mommy. I'm ready for the spotty sleep and burp rags. The dirty diapers, scrapped knees, report cards, tears, first steps, smiles, birthdays, and holidays with a child are something I want more than anything!


Love & Logic~
Belle